“So I’ll labor for hours ’cause I know the power of a song when a song hits you right. Pouring my soul into stories of life hoping someone will hear one tonight. Maybe my voice will cut through the noise, and stir up an old memory. Out of these piano keys comes the sound, the sound of a million dreams.”
So this is it. In less than 36 hours I will be on a plane to Nashville. I feel so unprepared (partly due to the fact that I haven’t even attempted to start packing yet). It was hard enough to pack airplane-ready bags for a three week trip to Europe, but now I have to pack a bag (or two) that is under 50 pounds that needs to last me three and a half months. You could say I am stressed about this entire experience.
I am so excited to have this amazing opportunity to study at the Contemporary Music Center, but currently I am freaking out. This is the perfect opportunity for me to get a foothold in the country music capital of the world; the place where I know I will need to move if I want to have a career in country music, but I know that in this program and in this city, I am judged on my talent. Not my brains, not how hard I try, but on good I am. I want this so bad though, so there is nothing that could stop me from going after this, especially not myself.
This experience being all about music, I am trying to center my blog a little bit about music. The title of the blog “in this crazy town” is from the Jason Aldean song “Crazy Town” which I am often reminded of when thinking about my upcoming travels to Nashville.
“It’s a crazy town full of neon dreams, everybody plays, everybody sings. Hollywood with a touch of twang, to be a star you gotta bang, bang, bang. Bend those strings ’til the Hank comes out. Make all the drunk girls scream and shout. You love it, you hate it, we’re all just trying to make it in this crazy town.”
The title of this post “The Sound of a Million Dreams” is a song by David Nail that has been really inspiring to me as I try to pursue a career in music, since it talks about the work and dreams put into being a musician. Another song that has been similarly inspiring I used in the header image, “Even if it Breaks Your Heart” by the Eli Young Band.
“Some dreams stay with you forever, drag you around but bring you back to where you were. Some dreams keep on getting better, gotta keep believing if you wanna know for sure. Oh, oh, I can hear ’em playing, I can hear the ringing of a beat-up old guitar. Oh, oh I can hear ’em singing, keep on dreaming even if it breaks your heart.”
Whether I’m ready or not, this new chapter of my life is beginning. I’m excited and terrified. I’m really hoping that this experience teaches me to overcome my fears and be a better performer. If I don’t, then this is going to be a very painful semester with a live show every week and a 6-8 day tour with a show every day.